Hey, you. It’s okay to feel like arse sometimes.
Today, I spent much of my time in my nightdress and dressing gown, alternately having a bit of a cry, dancing to Emilie Autumn playing the violin, and eating chocolate biscuits in pairs.
Do you know why I’m telling you this?
It’s because I felt like arse. I felt depressed and kind of purposeless. I composed my thoughts into a competent paragraph to put in a status of my imaginary social network of misery:
I feel pointless, underappreciated and sick of job hunting. I feel that I am constantly rejected whilst my friends and peers forge ahead with no problems. I am unhappy where I am.
After I wrote this imaginary status, I sort of sat about for a bit, then did what always makes me feel a little bit more good than I was feeling before: I showered.
I then got on with the rest of my day. I applied for another job. I worked on my NaNo novel a little bit more. I ate some Hula Hoops.
What I didn’t do was mentally berate myself about “wasting” my morning by moping around on my bed.
Because it’s okay to feel like arse. You are in possession of a complicated web of feelings, emotions and reactions, and however much you may struggle with feelings of unproductivity, you are feeling legitimate feelings.
What’s not okay is if the feeling like arse persists – please get hold of your GP. Modern medicine is there to assist you and you deserve to get your brain chemicals (if they’re being troublesome little gits) back into balance.
Having half a day, a day, two days of feeling like you would rather cry into a pile of cheeseburgers than look anyone in the eye is all right, stop feeling guilty. But learn that you have to get out of arse-town and back on the cycle path, or else you’ll miss the cherry trees blooming. Even tiny things help:
1. Look on a recruitment website. Pinpoint one job you would like and can do. Perfect your application throughout the day – spend quality time with it. Make friends with it. Send it off when completely satisfied.
2. Make a point of phoning the employer to enquire about the job if a number is provided. Being forced to talk to someone will jerk you out of your arse-spiral and back on level ground.
3. Go for a walk, a cycle, a jog, a fly, a skate. If you cannot, please stick your face out of an open window and take some slow breaths. Fresh air will wake your brain up. Alone in the house with no sound, you will just feel worse.
Do you feel like arse right now? Why is that? How will you get out of it? Comment below and share your advice; or just comment to get it out of your system. And I hope you feel better soon.